Tikkun Olam

'Tikkun Olam' is a hebrew phrase which literally means 'to repair the world'. It is a kabbalistic concept which I'm not professing to know alot about at all, only a tiny bit...it is about helping to make the world more perfect.....anyway......today I told A all about what I'd been processing with regard to my previous entry. How I'd love us to adopt an international child after (please god) we have one or two of our own (that's the fantasy). We talked about it for a quite a while, what it would mean to us? what it would potentially be like?....& A likes the idea too, alot. For me - I believe its our way of contributing to tikkun olam. Its our bit, its how we can contribute to the world. Its adopting a child for them, to give them a loving home - not because we desire a family but because we can do our bit & thats how. On so many levels it feels so right for me but of course I have no idea whats ahead...will we ever have our own? Will we adopt because we have to? I don't know the answers to those questions....but I know this is what I would love A & I to do this lifetime, how we would like our family to be.

And tomorrow I must take my sick old body back to work. Im not fully recovered but enough to return. Though I hate having the flu, I actually think the time & space enabled some room for me to process some of this stuff so for that - it was good to be home & ofcourse it was good to be with all my boys. A only leaves for work in the afternoon so it was nice to have sleep ins & not race out in the mad week hype.

It made me want to have a holiday together, but not even necessarily go away....it would be so nice to just have a break where we can both chill out even here at home, sleeping, enjoy spring thays almost here, etc.....but for both of us a holiday isnt in the plans soon. A is away at a conference in 2 weeks for a week & though I appreciate the space, I hate it when he's away.