Fence sitting

I awoke sad, depressed.....dreading the u/sound. We drove in silence. It was awful. We waited in the waiting room for over half an hour. Dozens of very happy pregnant couples exited from their u/sounds with their dvd's showing their babies. They were all smiling, rebooking their next u/sound.

Finally we were called in. She took her time, measuring my ovaries....& then measured the gestational sac. I was jumping ahead of her asking questions.....'Is there a heartbeat, how big does it measure?'...and so our baby is measuring at only 2mm....ie: 5weeks & 4 days when it should be measuring 6 weeks & 2 days - a 5 day discrepancy. The heartbeat is 112 / minute.

The sonographer seemed to think it was good news. I didn't......as my miscarriage management nurse had told me it would need to measure the right size. We were taken in to see a dr. He was lovely. He was sitting on the fence....the good news he said is there's a heartbeat but it is smaller than it should be.....he suggested we u/sound again next Thurs.

I was tryng to integrate the info. It could have been worse but was not very good....we're still in with a chance but it feels like ...just ...in by a thread.

We waited for our RE to call.....he shared the same view. He is sitting on the fence, wouldn't give me a likelihood or probability. He said it could easily go either way. He is concerned abt the size but there is still a heartbeat. He said anything over 110 beats / min is ok & were just in....so...more excruciating waiting.

We went back to my acupuncturist (the old one as at least I can just pop in to her) she was worried abt the size & heartbeat but (would you believe) this time...my pulses are strong, good & she said she is positive & hopeful.

So...who knows.....its out of my hands....Its a jewish holiday coming up & we'll bein synagogue quite a lot over the w'end so lots of praying opportunities.

Is it possible our baby can just be a tad small but OK?

Do any of you know abt size discrepancies & heartbeats & all these terrifying things?????

This will be an excruciating week.

Oh yeh....I've decided to use both acupuncturists as I need....you see you cant just pop into J but she is more communicative but at least with L, I can just pop in so have decided to utilise both as I need them. My intuition is at the moment acup once / twice a week will help so Im going to go back to L on Monday.